Thursday, May 3, 2007

Preparation for Bad News

Yesterday I went to take some genotyping info to my GP. It is a blood test that can be done to determine if your liver has the enzymes to metabolize a specific medication. (Genotyping can be done for other things too, but this is my application.) I want to know if the Tamoxifen I am taking to inhibit estrogen will do me any good.

While I was there, I got a copy of the reports the oncologists sent to my doctor. They were much more dire than the reports my oncologists gave me. Essentially, they said that because of the family history of cancer, the grade of cancer(3-at the aggressive end of the scale), the estrogen negativity, and the opposite side site of atypical hyperplasia, I am at significant risk of recurrence. If recurrence happens anywhere but the same site, they basically consider it to be terminal cancer.

If I had this report 2 days earlier, I would have been devastated. However, because of God's intervention on Tues (see my last blog), I still feel hopeful.

Before Tuesday, I had an underlying feeling that the cancer would come back and kill me. I cannot say for sure that it still won't happen, but now I feel overwhelmingly optimistic.

The physical tip and the spiritual tip coincide today. God is in charge of your adventure. Take it a day at a time and trust that He has a customized plan for you.

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